Though looking forward to seeing family at traditional holiday gatherings, you agonize that you might feel judged even though you are usually quite happy with your life as it is. Also known by the phrase "Who needs an inner critic when there are outer ones who seem more than happy to have me feeling criticized enough?"
Holiday Judgment Phobia can exist at any age, and cover a wide range of areas feeling raw and exposed for judgment. For example, weight, leg length, hair style, hair color, clothing, shoes, jewelry, make-up, boyfriend, girlfriend, pregnancy, weight, skin, tattoos, piercings, nails, children, manners, vocabulary, education, employment, spouse, ex-spouse, welfare, dishes, food choices, unemployment, pets, living arrangements, friends, enemies, politics, religion, travel, dreams, goals, and current lifestyle choices in general.
Your desire to see your family at the annual gathering is offset by your anticipatory angst of being judged by your family though your own inner critic judges you mercilessly.
Holiday Anticipatory Angst includes a wide range of stress regardless of one's personal happiness or not so happiness in their own life situation. An example could be when you are pleased with yourself for making a decision regarding a difficult situation, yet have so much angst about revealing your choices at a large family gathering that you have thoughts of skipping the entire event.